I got the confirmation that I am no longer a student at the university. I am a reject out of the reject medical schools. i had to tell my parents and the devastation and disappointment on their faces was crushing. They're worried sick. They're calling all over the place to figure out if I have any option to enter medicine. To be completely honest, it seems to me that going into medicine is not a good option for me. It might just be the disappointment of the grades talking but I need to figure this out. The problem is that family in India have told me I need to decide "within hours" if I want to do medicine and they might be able to get me an admission in India even though I'm a U.S. citizen. It's going to cost my parents a fortune (it is a one time payment up front to enter the university). It is a payment of around 160,000 USD. My dad can't afford that. He would have to take out a second mortgage on the house to finance this (there is no financial aid like American schools so that I can pay for myself, I have to depend on my parents completely). To be completely honest, I think I'm going to talk to them and tell them going to India for medical school at that cost is not preferable. But let's be fair, not having an option to do anything isn't that preferable either. I really got myself in a big mess and I need to get myself out of this as soon as possible. The thing with telling my parents I don't want to do medicine is that when I do tell them, my dad says 'you can't just give up on something, you need to go through with things in life'. He has a point there. I can't develop a tendency to quit all the time. But what do I do in this situation where I need to figure out my capabilities and just the simple practicality of this. If I'm being honest, I would have to say that I liked the concept of medicine as a career but never pursued it with the passion I needed to succeed.
Either way, worrying about the past will get me nowhere. I need to figure out what to do now. I feel like I need to tell my parents they can't that type of a risk on someone this undependable. I'm not being gloomy about myself but I need to be honest with myself - I need to develop some dependability. If I don't do medicine, the other options mainly include business and law. Law kinda rules itself out based on the fact that I've taken only a few undergrad political science classes and I need to probably go back to undergrad and THEN apply to law school. That would extend the whole thing by a couple of years. The other option seems to be business but I would have to either take a semester of classes in January and apply for an MBA starting August 2012 (pointless if the world ends that December lol). However, my parents believe the best thing for me to do is to go to India (noticing a common trend here lol) and prepare for what are called 'entrance examinations' for some of India's best business schools. Most of them don't require any previous work experience and I would have a relatively good shot at getting a good job when I return to the U.S. It might seem that I keep saying 'my parents want me to do this....' a lot but the reality is I'm kind of lost right now. I need to snap out of this and take care of my life. I guess I've started some things - I haven't watched any TV or wasted times on the laptop but I still have a long way to go. Sorry for the whiny nature of this blog but I'm just working my way out of a rut... let's see how this goes. Hope everything's good to whoever reads this.
Either way, worrying about the past will get me nowhere. I need to figure out what to do now. I feel like I need to tell my parents they can't that type of a risk on someone this undependable. I'm not being gloomy about myself but I need to be honest with myself - I need to develop some dependability. If I don't do medicine, the other options mainly include business and law. Law kinda rules itself out based on the fact that I've taken only a few undergrad political science classes and I need to probably go back to undergrad and THEN apply to law school. That would extend the whole thing by a couple of years. The other option seems to be business but I would have to either take a semester of classes in January and apply for an MBA starting August 2012 (pointless if the world ends that December lol). However, my parents believe the best thing for me to do is to go to India (noticing a common trend here lol) and prepare for what are called 'entrance examinations' for some of India's best business schools. Most of them don't require any previous work experience and I would have a relatively good shot at getting a good job when I return to the U.S. It might seem that I keep saying 'my parents want me to do this....' a lot but the reality is I'm kind of lost right now. I need to snap out of this and take care of my life. I guess I've started some things - I haven't watched any TV or wasted times on the laptop but I still have a long way to go. Sorry for the whiny nature of this blog but I'm just working my way out of a rut... let's see how this goes. Hope everything's good to whoever reads this.
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